I’m so tired of feeling sick and tired. I’ve been feeling drained in every sense of the word for quite some time. I just don’t feel well. I’m mentally, physically, and emotionally exhausted. I wake up tired and not well rested. My typical day can be best described as a shit storm. I don’t know what I’m doing from one second to the next. More accurately, I start doing one thing, get side tracked, and forget what I was going to do next. My thoughts come and go so quickly that if I don’t do something immediately I forget instantly. It’s kind of scary how bad my memory is. My brain feels so foggy that I even have trouble finding my words or thinking through the simplest situations. My ideas and thoughts ping and pong back and forth all day long making me feel like a lunatic and leaving me in a mental stupor. The constant hampster wheel in my brain is always spinning, but going nowhere. It is so hard for me to be present because my mind is somewhere else and then I miss the things that actually matter.
The mental fatigue and the inability to focus gets me frustrated and upset to the point of tears on a frequent basis. I feel overwhelmed more often than not which causes me to be irritated and irritable. If I’m not crying I’m in a state of piss off. It feels impossible to find any joy or happiness in anything I do. I want to enjoy my life and the people in it, but instead I’m plagued with constant disappointment and unhappiness which makes me feel guilty because I know how blessed and fortunate I am. Sometimes I feel like a total asshole for having the nerve to feel that way. The internal struggle is real and ever present.
The constant mental and emotional trauma keep my central nervous system working overtime with no breaks. Then my anxiety, OCD, and ADHD join the party making it impossible for me to sit still. So I just keep moving all day long and never allow myself to relax. The constant hyper activity leave my physical health and wellness as damaged as my mental and emotional health, but hey at least they’re all on the same page. I have chronic pain, headaches, fatigue, and chronic ear infections. All the stress and anxiety definitely manifest into physical symptoms.
I don’t know why I’m stuck in this purgatory of misery, but I’m determined to figure it out and feel well again. After a candid conversation with one of my besties I found she is feeling the same way and we are both near the edge of mental breakdowns and burnouts. Neither of us want to see the other implode because it won’t be pretty. While they’re are plenty of outside factors contributing to our feelings of stress and “unwellness” we’ve decided to start with the things we can control and that begins with maybe the most important factor in health and wellness… what goes in our bodies.
We are embarking on a 21 day anti inflammatory detox plan together in an effort to start feeling better from the inside out. I have a yeast allergy so my anti inflammatory plan will aim to reduce and eliminate foods and beverages with yeast to fight inflammation and allergic responses in my body. My bestie doesn’t have a yeast allergy so she will follow a similar anti inflammatory diet plan that doesn‘t require her to eliminate all foods containing yeast.
Making these kinds of changes can be difficult. Old habits die hard, but we believe the impact on our overall health and well being is worth the effort. We know we are not operating at our peak performance because we feel like shit everyday. So we’re going to do it together so we can support each other and be accountable. We’re going to document our experience and see how we’re feeling on the other side of these 21 days.
In the spirit of transparency and full disclosure I prepared for this cleanse by eating a pint of ice cream and drinking peanut butter whiskey last night. Today is the day of reckoning.
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